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My Bed

As a child, all you can really do is dream. You dream of touching the stars, digging to China, and finding the cure to cancer. As a young child, you’re allowed to do a lot more than you are when you grow up. You can play in the rain naked without being arrested for Public Nudity. You can doodle in class and get an A+ instead of an F. If you show up late because you slept too late, it’s ok, the playdate will just go a little later than usual. But now we’re grown up. I can’t show up late to my appointments, doodle on my paperwork, and for the sake of those around me-I promise to keep my clothes on in public. Things stop being cute and innocent, and they become serious. The only things we have to hold on to from our childhood are our dreams.

Dreams begin when you close your eyes, and let your mind wander. Your bed welcomes you into a comforting state of sleep where you lay peacefully. Your dreams grow wilder and wilder as the days go on. They transform from rainbows and unicorns to events you wish could happen, or to that perfect someone you just can’t get off your mind. Your dreams even begin to turn on you and stress you out-because even your dreams grow up. You wake up in the morning and ponder about the crazy happenings of your mind. You start the day right where you ended it-in your bed.

Your bed is the treasure chest of your deepest secrets. It is the safe haven that will welcome you home every night, and wait patiently for you to return later that evening. It holds every wish you’ve made on a star, every tear you’ve shed before falling asleep, and every dream that you’ve dared to dream.

So, why would I ever let you intrude on this? Why should I welcome you into the most vulnerable place of my home, of my heart? This bed wasn’t meant for you to sleep in, these sheets haven’t blanketed your body before. In fact, my mind hasn’t welcomed you into the deepest pits of its thoughts. My heart has not given you the key to my treasure chest where my childhood runs ramped with unicorns and rainbows, all of which is stored safely in the comforts of my bed.

Maybe I’m old-fashioned when it comes to my strong belief in waiting till marriage, but look at my small, twin-sized bed. For now, I am too young to share this bed with you. It was designed to protect me, and only me. When I’m older and I have met someone who understands this, he will wrap me in white and gold. My father will pass me off into his hands, and he will carry me over the threshold of my new home. He will lay me down into a new bed, one meant to cherish the responsibility of two hearts’ dreams. And in this bed, new dreams will form and new treasures will be stored. This bed will be grown up, more mature than my twin-sized bed. It will be able to welcome both of us home, and it will be able to warm both of us effortlessly on even the coldest of nights. This bed will protect both of us, while my twin-sized bed will move on to another little girl whose dreams still chase after the stars, dig to China, and find the cure to cancer.

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Life is Beautiful

Nothing is more amazing than a smile that has struggled though tears

Keep your head up and your heart strong! :)

“Power is being told you are not loved and not being destroyed by it”

Keep smiling no matter what is the motto of the day.

Easy, easy, easy to say but too hard to do everyday. Try at least.

Nothing is forever, when you’re sad just remember that happiness will hit you too someday, hug the hope and wait for your time, when it comes, remember that it won’t last forever either so just live it up, enjoy every second of it.

While you  wait for the best time of your life just remember to taste every opportunity that seems to lead to happiness, even if you’re scared that it won’t, even f you don’t want to get hurt, you’ll regret more if you don’t try.

Whenever you feel betrayed, sad, useless, not good enough just think that you are meant to be a strong person and you weren’t made for an easy life with medium achievements. No, you’re supposed to be a leader, a person that weaker people look up to. Don’t look for less. Always think that you can do better than you did before. Always ask yourself for more, don’t settle down when a little happiness shows up at your door, you can have more, you can have it all but only if you work harder. No pain, no game, right?

I don’t think that haters are useless, I don’t think that you should ignore them. Maybe it’s the wrong way to think, I don’t know. But maybe they have a reason to hate, maybe along the way you really did something “hateble” or maybe not. But I think that they point out your flaws and you should learn from it, don’t be sad because they exist, they are more sad than you are because they don’t even see their defects and they don’t have a beautiful life like you have, they don’t posses your strength or your skills, they just watch you from afar and comment.

So don’t be sad if you didn’t reach your goal yet, your life is not ending right now, you still have time….. also don’t forget to enjoy every moment of this amazing journey called “LIFE”, if you can’t be the best, at least you’ll be happy because you tried, you have to!!

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Love Spent!

Same old story…You say you want me but you don’t act like you really do…Not that I care anyway…Because I don’t want you…I don’t know why I keep you in my life at all…Because you annoy me and your demands are beyond imagination…Not that I’d ever want to fill them anyway…You are past and it’s time to let go of the past and live in the future…It may hurt, but it’s not meant to be…You never treasured me the way you said you would nor did I treasure you, because my heart wasn’t free…It’s not free now either, but you don’t understand…We are not meant to be, because I don’t love you, I never did and I never will…Because it wasn’t our destiny …I want to leave…I want to get away…I was away but it felt strange…I was still lost…I felt lost…It was better than here…But I was still lost…I just needed to get away…But I had some time to think…And clear my head…And my desire to find my place and my home and fulfill my dreams is stronger than ever…I came back…But this is not home either…I came back and there’s this heaviness on my heart…I don’t feel that this is home any more…I feel estranged…I feel that I’m so far away…I’m sad and feel like there’s a big hole in my heart, an empty space that must be filled…I’m trying so hard to find my place…I try to keep myself busy so I wouldn’t have to think about this emptiness…There’s a list…A list of things to do before I can go and look for my place and find my home…Time passes by really fast when I keep myself busy…I try not to think about the unpleasant things and situations but just to deal with them…I feel so lonely and lost but I can’t tell anyone, because no one understands…Everyone wants a piece of me for their own selfish reasons but no one cares to understand how I might feel…No one listens…And now I’ve stopped caring…This is my life, my future and my feelings…It’s only me…So why should anyone want to understand…So I will no longer try to explain what I do and why, now I just do it…It just annoys me that after I do it everybody are shocked and never expected anything like this from me…But hey, at least you can’t say I didn’t warn you…If you had paid attention to what I had to say you would’ve been prepared…So when I say I want to leave and eventually I will, don’t act surprised like you had no idea…This is my wish, my life, my dream…One day I will make it happen…I don’t know when but I hope soon…Because I get more and more anxious every day…I want to be with you more and more…I wish I could tell you how much…And I wish that you’d wait for me…I won…I’ve never won anything in my life, but now I did…I couldn’t believe it…But it was because of you…You were my lucky “number”…Ever since I fell in love with you great things have happened to me…Anything connected to you brings me good luck and wonderful things…You are my luck, you are my jackpot…If I win your heart and love, I’ll have it all…I couldn’t possibly ask for more…And I know I’m your luck too, if I’d tell you how you would know why…Life can be as bad as it can get but with you in my life there’s still hope…You are my hope, you are my light, you are my everything…

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You’re Perfect

That may sound like a cliche already, but it’s the most important and hard thing in life!!

First of all you need to understand who are you, what do you like, what kind of person are you, what are your talents, what do you want to have in this life.

Then you have to :accept that person, love yourself and never give up on your dreams, no matter what.

You also need to tell other people that they either accept you, or they leave you alone, because no person deserves to take control of your life, to tell you what you should think, how you should act, what you need to do or what you can’t do.

You’re the only one who knows what’s best for you and you should never forget that what you want is what you need.

Don’t forget to respect other people as much as you want to be respected, don’t judge them by their appearance, thoughts and beliefs, because it’s not your duty and you’re also gonna be judged by them. Would you like that? No, of course not.

Do whatever you want, with who you want and never live the way others tell you, they have their own life… your destiny is yours to create, don’t just abandon it. You’ll have regrets if you don’t live to the fullest, you will want to be back in time and do things your way because that’s the only way you can be great at something and the path to the true happiness. It’s not an easy one! To get to know yourself takes years,then to accept that person may be even harder, but never give up and support the ones around you, they may be even less happy about their life then you are.

“You were born an original, don’t die a copy” ~ Oscar Wilde

Be happy, be good and be you!!!!!!!

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Dreaming

 

With eyes closed, I dream. I dream of me and you, of hugging, kissing, talking, fighting, touching, dreaming, crying, wishing and hoping. In my dreams even the bad things are good, because they are with you. When we fight, I know we are fighting for eachother, trying to hold on to what we have. Then kissing as if it’s the last time we wiĺl ever kiss, hugging as if protecting eachother from everything bad around us.

But then I wake, and the nightmare begins again. The one where the fight is lost and no one is hugging me protecting me from the bad… The last kiss barely lingers on me my lips because it has been a lifetime since we touched.

I miss you and love you and wiĺl always feel this way. Others may catch my eye and maybe even my heart but they wiĺl have it all second hand, covered in little chips and breaks from where you didn’t protect it and gave it up.

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